damn

"I came by to see how you were."

"Are you kidding me?"

"No, I just wanted to make sure..."

"You didn't come here to see how I am. You came here to see how you are, because you know in your heart what you did, you want to make sure you're okay.

I can't even pretend to have a conversation about anything else with you. What it comes down to is faith. What I was hoping you would say is I gave up, I gave up on us, I lost faith. But what you came here for was closure and there is not a chance you are getting that from me. I'm not gonna say I understand, I'm not gonna sympathize with you and tell you how hard it must be for you, but you wanna know how I am?

I am horrible. I am ripped apart. Not because I lost you, but because if it had been me, I would have waited, I would have found the truth, I wouldn't have given up on you. And now I realize what an absolute waste that would have been."

--Alias